20060428
Everyone makes mistakes.
It is acceptable, natural and it is frequently happening in our daily lives.
But what is most unacceptable and attrocius are actually those unscrupulous asses who would find ALL ways to cover up their mistakes so as to preserve their worthless and crappy pride. In the process of doing that, idiots like this have caused problems and inconvenience to others around him/her, even when these innocent people do not actually deserve this SHIT.
First and foremost, as a person of your position, it is right for those around you to respect you, to look up to you as a role model. HOWEVER, there are EXCEPTIONS. Sad to say exceptions exist due to the fact that there are those who spoil the good reputation of such people by not only failing to do his job well, but also being unreasonable to those who are, sadly, under his crappy control.
Respect is GAINED, it not necessarily comes with the position you are in. And Respect can also be LOST, lost to an extent that it becomes NEGATIVE, and you know that its negative when you are constantly being despised, cursed and hated by those around you. For what you have done, for the problems you have caused... u urself shld noe better if u deserve that respect.
Besides is there a point to preserve your pride and try to cover up your mistakes when you currently have a negative respect from those around you? Please dun treat those around you as brainless and spastic fools who are blind enough to believe in what you say, and are unable to see that you are obviously trying to hide your mistakes and flaws, trying to show the all-mighty and powerful side of you by boasting off what you have achieved all these years, by words of crap that is travelling out of your mouth. For your info, everything that comes out from your mouth lacks credibility after the horrifying experience of listening to your endless rantings.
Perhaps you are oblivious to everything that is happening around you, perhaps you are just far too stubborn, perhaps you are just far too proud, far too incapable and useless.
Open your freaking eyes and look whats around you. I dun care what you do to yourself, just dun land those around you in deep shit.
pedo---->
posted @ 11:57 PM
0 comments
20060422
A fridae... thats full of crap.. Haha.. Full of crap.. i woke up at 9.25a.m. today. Why? Cause i thought today was Saturday! lol..
I was alreadi in a end of weekdays mood yesterday as econs and BIO, YES bloody bio was over, and i performed above my own expectations in the sportsdae competition ytd :D i thought that i would have been affected by the injury to a far greater extent...but wasn't THAT bad after all! haha.. yep... a combination of happy things on the day before, which is thursday,... made me feel as though it was friday, the end of the week... Lol. And so i thought today was sat, until Siyun called my house and my maid picked up :O
Lol. And so. I CHIONGED to school, without bathing, without eating, but got brush teeth la. Haha.. and den i happily go and slack during PE, Talk cock during Recess, den when it was 5 mins b4 maths test, i realized i forgot to bring my GC. Basket... i panicked and tried to borrow it frm some senior outside the audi, but to no avail... and so it happened.. i screwed up maths test... my strength... maths was supposed to be my strength!!!!! KAOZ!@$$@~ Wha a crappy start.
had comm serve in the afternoon... and phew... it was realli tough!! some of those kids were damn hard to handle... siyun, sean, ivan or yueqi u all better take turns for the diff kids okay! haha..
Well.. after that had dinner at adam's... basket... i regretted spamming the chilli i am having a terrible sore throat and feeling feverish right now :/ sigh... sucks..
Yep.. and then it was the main highlight, pulse rock concert in school... it was realli not bad! the audience could have been much higher though... and its a sad sad thing to see ppl so unenthu in a concert like this. The first band was good... the overall coordination of the band memebers were really good... and of course.. the vocalist... she improved like 5 times since orientation ... maybe she got a sore throat the last time>? haha.... yep...shes great..
And of course AVIS... hahah....dun worry guys u all did a great job overall... yep though... there was some slips here and there... u guys are not totally to be blamed yea? technical faults here and there and some other coordination problems, maybe because u were too tensed up! I know u guys are pretty disappointed because... u all didn't perform to ur best ability...yep I have seen what u guys are actually capable of! :D I am sure u still have plenty of opportunities
But... ya... dun give up.. the class is always behind u... we await ur next performance....CONTINUE PRACTISING and ENJOY IT.
The spirit must carry on Alright!
posted @ 8:36 PM
0 comments
20060416
oh man.. i would have been competing in the afternoon, if not for that shoulder injury....
Just got the results of the comp.... And that made me felt like banging my head on the bloody wall...
Perhaps the under 21 comp wasn't as scary as i thought....
cld have won pretty easily... cld have... is still a cld have...
And now... i am missing sports dae on tues...also argh.......
theres one part inside me thats asking me to go for it... and the other part telling me not to destroy myself especially when i am still injured.
The temptation is just too great... especially when I am quitting after this season... hOw?....
argh....i hate this feeling....totally...tmd
posted @ 6:42 PM
0 comments
20060409
Well.. so it did happen... my shoulder injury was pretty bad..
Tore the tendon :(
and i have got to skip 2 competitions because of that.
Sorri for being moody, distracted and all for the past few days...
I m just pretty disappointed and angered by myself...
wanted to end all of my track 5 yrs in track and field with a beautiful finish in nationals and set a record in sports dae.
Looks like I can't even compete in sports dae and i would have insufficient time to get back to my form for nationals.
Looks like whats done is done... Somethings never change, I am still that stubborn always overtraining and overloading myself during trainings...which is why i shld stop training after this season before i kill myself.. haha... i deserve this shitty injury.
Perhaps I shld have just ran for council at the first place ( but what done is done)
Or perhaps i shldn't try to occupy myself with too much stuff anymore. Maybe I shld just focus on my studies&piano and help out in more CIP activites...
Maybe what yunsong said that day was right, " its better to be carefree and slackish sometimes."
All my past 5 yrs i have piaed like a bull...
I had my fair sure of failures and success.
If I have not been so badly battered by all these past injuries, perhaps all these experiences i gained from track were worth it....
But on the other hand... if i have not been injured. Perhaps I would have not seen the light...I would still be what i was in sec 2, hungry, emotionless and selfish...not being able to be contented with what i have...
Once again...what happened has happened... i should be thankful for what i have been given...
Hmmm.. on a lighter note, life without my righthand is realli quite challenging.. haha...
Well for instance i learnt to plae frisbee with my left hand on fri... and its not bad after all (: but i am getting damn sianed on the piano when i can onli plae the bass notes argh. haha...
Sorry for this messed up, badly organized post... my mind just doesnt seem to be working well haha. yep.
Tag replies:
fel: Lol maybe i think too much la haha... eh no lor i do lie too but for some reasons this time i feel extra guilty, haha. i think cauz its not white lie and i barely noe her LOL.
ivan, soph, zhuting: haha.. its okay la whats over is over, just try not to be that late next time :)
mq: Oh is mq= miao qin? haha...no la the past music must have made the blog seemed gloomy, lol
75: thanks for tolerating with my nonsense for the past few daes. i will try to recover fast and join u guys in capt ball and not be that moody too (:
posted @ 7:38 PM
0 comments
20060406
I told a lie.
A lie to someone who I barely even know.
Well to begin...with, perhaps today was not a very good day for me... I dunno what the heck happened but I injured my shoulder ... It hurts and It sucks especially when competition is coming. Thereafter, the pain in my ankle came back again after i got banged by an opening door... perhaps today wasn't my dae.
Last period was PE... As usual we slacked in the class for a while after bio tut was over... So i sat down and waited for a while. 10 mins have past, many of them still stayed back and refused to move, except for a few who have already went out and changed into their P.E shirt, thanks a lot gals. I confess that i was getting pretty fed up at the point of time as no one was listening when i told everi1 to get moving. Walked out of the door and headed straight for the canteen area for P.E. as it was getting far too late. To my disappointment, everyone either took their own sweet time or just headed back to class bench. I gave up so I just walked there first.
I was shocked to see that we had a new P.E. teacher this time.. and of course when i reported to her... She looked pretty upset.. Finally, she asked the question that i was dreading to answer. "why are you guys so late?" I hesitated for a long while and decided that i had to lie to her that lessons ended 15 mins late, or else she would have a terrible first impression of our class... She accepted my reason...or rather she accepted that lie... and when i turned around, I was hoping to see everyone present or at least making an effort to rush down, they weren't... people were still strolling down from the canteen... I was really speechless...
She's a new teacher and she had to wait for almost 30 mins before knowing that she had actually wasted her time waiting as it was too late for PE. I couldn't believe that i actually lied to someone whom i barely even know. And the fact that she didn't even scold or question me further made me felt even more guilty.
My apologies for raising my voice in front of the class, perhaps i was too impulsive.
Yep...this blog entry, if u do read it... is just an explanation of why I did that during P.E. I hope you do understand the reason behind all this...
posted @ 4:30 PM
0 comments
